i cried in my astronomy class today. that doesn’t happen. in fact, that’s the last place i’d expect that to happen unless it was out of sheer frustration.
a man named john bohlen came in and spoke. from just walking in, i didn’t really notice anything peculiar, except for the fact that he had memorized every student’s name before even meeting us. but once he started talking about his life and stars and the Maker of it all, there was this sense of wonder and overwhelming joy that just fell on everyone. and i think it is simply because he is truly allowing Jesus to live through him. you can always tell when you meet someone who really gets it (not that any of us can fully comprehend God’s love for us), but there are some that seem to get it a little more. me? i still struggle with this inferiority complex and insecurities galore, which shows me i’ve still got some dying to myself to do. if i grasped what Christ’s death means for me, and how i’m alive as He lives in me, then what on earth should i be ashamed of? if everywhere i go, i’m somehow representing my perfect and holy Savior, how can i question whether or not i am adequate?
yes, i learned how to memorize star names and constellations as well today, but i think i learned a whole lot more about my Maker and how beautiful He is.
if i truly acknowledged that the Maker of the universe, the Creator of hundreds of billions of galaxies composed of hundreds of billions of stars,
when people ask me how i am,
i’d have to reply “i’m too happy.”
isaiah 40:12 says God can measure the heavens in the span of His hand. yet galatians 2:20 declares “i have been crucified with Christ and i no longer live, but Christ lives in me. the life i live in the body, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
He doesn’t exist somewhere up in the stars—He’s too big for that. yet He lives within this deteriorating, scarred carbon shell of mine. what makes me worthy of such an honor?
how can you not be overwhelmed day after day, if you wake up remembering that He not only created everything beautiful and good but He also chooses to live in and through you if you let Him?
“i just have so much love for so many people i barely know. i pray that despite the time and distance between each conversation or personal encounter, you know how much you mean to me and how greatly you affect my life. and i just want to know you better:). i want to know your stories. stories are the most powerful thing in the world. your story is no less fascinating than any published novel. i promise. do not doubt your potential to influence this wonderful world.”—
Honor! I love your list :) As a dreamer, I know exactly how you are feeling! School is so important... but I can't wait to get past it and start living the dreams that God has put into my heart. Many are similar to yours :) I miss your spirit and your hugs a lot. Don't lost sight of your dreams in this time of waiting. LOVE YOU.
my darling robin,
i’m so glad we’re on the same page. although i’d prefer the same page to be in the same area code. we need to work on that.
i love you so much. distance and time has done nothing to hurt our friendship, and for that i am so so thankful:). i hope you’re doing wonderfully.
my astronomy lab got canceled and i’m more than delighted,because it is bitter out there
(and it’s not even october. not good)
and i’m really in one of those list-making moods
(i’m sure you understand)
so this is my list of all the things i’m really, really excited for in life
(in no particular order)
meeting/marrying the boy i get to grow old with
(and the boy who will make growing old not sound so bad with)
adopting lots of wonderful babies from all over the world and loving them to pieces
(and having tea parties and playing dress-up and making sure they know they’re my little princes and princesses and letting them color all over their bedroom walls and reading them stories and teaching them speed scrabble and watching beauty and the beast together and attempting to play football or soccer and going on adventures..)
writing a book that somehow impacts at least one person
getting to see all my friends get married and have kids
learning hindi fluently
maybe win a pulitzer prize for my photography
(yes, i’m dreaming big.)
more body art
(sorry, mother and father)
having a dog again
(and maybe a pet tiger that i somehow magically rescue if i live in india)
traveling to all seven continents
learning how to cook my mom’s chicken curry and rice
(somehow without the chicken)
seeing every band/artist that has had a significant impact on my life live in concert
working with an organization like amnesty international for a while
as much as i value education and all i’m learning in school, i wish i could speed it up a bit. buuuut i know in retrospect it’ll fly by. patience is not my forte.
thanks for the advice eskimo girl :) you know when i was saying you were the most beautiful girl in the world i wasn't just talking about your smile.. i was talking about your beautiful personality as well :)
have i ever told you that you’re my favorite ever?
Honor, I absolutely love that your name is Honor and I wish I had met you when you met the Quinleys that one time (this was so long ago, maybe you don't remember) but yes, a;lskdjf I wish I had met you cause you're super awesome. What totally astounds me is that we found each other on tumblr and you've met my friends! :D Okay yeah, I'm done :)
oh, dear girl, likewise:). your blog encourages and inspires me daily. thank you for being so wonderful. we shall meet one day, i am sure of it:).